Everything has changed Yet, almost nothing at all. The rooms are quieter, calmer and relaxed There is space to breathe a full breath. I can close my eyes and let my shoulders drop. There is peace here. But my body tenses at the sound of every vehicle that passes by in the night. I canContinue reading “Trigger”
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…but he’s never hit me: pt 1
Trigger warnings: very brief and vague mention of suicide, depression, rape and sexual assault. At 16 years old I made a choice that would change my life. I was never a rebellious kid, I was shy, quiet, and you’d always find me hidden in the back of the room. I had friends, but I wasContinue reading “…but he’s never hit me: pt 1”
I thought…
I thought it was love, ‘cause he knew my name Said I was pretty, I guess I’m to blame. He gave me attention that I always craved Sixteen, naive My innocence taken away. Baited me in with lies and said we’d be ok. That little girl, a trauma filled teen Became a women trapped inContinue reading “I thought…”
If you just
Words I have heard far too many times Words that I once believed. For far too long. If you just listened, I wouldn’t have to yell. If you just did what I said, you wouldn’t get in trouble. If you just keep this a secret, nothing bad will happen. If you just lie, I won’tContinue reading “If you just”
I thought I could hurt forever…
I cook and clean and fold your clothes You never say you’re thankful anymore. I always thought I asked too much, is my fairytale idea of love, delusional? You know damn well that I’m drowning Heart is racing, head is pounding Is today the day I walk away? Maybe I can hurt forever if itContinue reading “I thought I could hurt forever…”
Manifesting a dream
I’ll be sitting, Cozy on the couch Wrapped in a blanket sipping Hot tea rests in my hands without a shadow of doubt This is where I’m meant to be. The walls of a beautiful home Open arms for love to roam Unafraid to crawl in bed to go to sleep I can lay soundlyContinue reading “Manifesting a dream”
May we
May we meet at the shores of peace The sands of tranquility May we clearly see A world removed of its grease May we find comfort in open arms To feel love without trauma’s guards May we hear unfiltered And speak without fear May we find laughter in arguments And may we never learn resentmentContinue reading “May we”
You’re joking, right?
Is this a dream? Am I lost in the subconscious of my mind Will I ever wake from these nightmarish binds Or is life really as it seems? Forgive and forget? You’re kidding me. I don’t believe in that bullshit Forgiveness should be earned But forgetting? That’s just absurd. You should never forget what’s beenContinue reading “You’re joking, right?”
A puddle of fears, a mountain of tears
Sitting in silence the body and mind at war. Fight and flight responses firing at once. Fighting is impossible, With flight, there is no escape. Filled with torment and hate. Internally screaming with anger and rage Panic ensues when boundaries are broken How foolish I’ve been And how foolish I am. False hopes and dreamsContinue reading “A puddle of fears, a mountain of tears”
The past
My life has felt almost like a dream Waking from a nightmare to be thrown into a revolving door amongst wishes, only to be caught, unable to escape the relentless spinning. I remember too much, too young. It must have been a dream right? Cigarette burns on my youth skin and in my lungs. LockedContinue reading “The past”
Ink & Embers 