I have always loved writing, and telling the stories I had in my head, so English class in high school was pretty fun for me. Well when we got to creative free writing anyway. And I will never forget the gripping horror/suspense story I wrote. I think I will try to recreate it soon and post it for y’all, ok? Cool!
But the main reason I wanted to pop on here was to kind of explain what writing feels like to me. So, not a long post today, but a meaningful one at the very least!
Everyone has that inner monologue (at least I hope I’m not the only one…am I?). Anyway, that you that only you can hear on your mind, that “voice” that allows you to think about what you’re going to say before you say it. Well let’s just say I have a love hate relationship with mine, because sometimes during life’s downs, you just want it to shut up and be silent for a moment, but of course, us women can’t turn our minds off like our male counterparts. (I swear meditation would be a breeze!)
Now, while yes I’ve always loved writing, I also have always loved video games. And mainly because it’s a way to be creative. I have this game that I have always loved and it will be forever my favorite, it’s called Fallout 3. But it is an open world game, meaning you can run around anywhere, explore just about any house you see, climb over almost any hill you see. It’s based in the future after a nuclear bomb catastrophe, so it is post apocalyptic. Well I love the feel of that game, the writers did wonderfully with the individual stories of characters. But to me, (since your character has no voice actor) it’s so easy to imagine the way your they speak, or sound, and kind of give them their own identity, and put yourself into the world. I always get a house, I go out and find the dog, and I really just love to immerse myself in it all.
Now that might sound a bit crazy, and maybe it is but, I love the ability to imagine in that way, and I’ve done that in any game I play, which is why I love gaming.
But I tell you that because one of my books I started, and also the story horror/suspense story I wrote, were heavily inspired by another game that I love called Skyrim. These types of games are a great inspiration for writing, and finding new worlds to play in and really build your stories around what you’ve seen and heard in the game worlds.
But onto a more serious note.
Writing is also a way for me to say what I need to without the interruption of someone else. It’s how I’m able to say the right words when I can’t think of them off the top of my head. Migraines will do that to you, words tend to get lost or disappear when you’re about to say them.
So being able to write gives me so much more freedom to express myself without me messing it up, or someone else stopping me because they don’t want to hear. My internal voice seems so much more sophisticated and is definitely more of a gives no shits kinda woman, and I love that.
If I only had the confidence to speak with that voice instead of the one that I actually have! Haha
But in all seriousness, writing is therapeutic to me, and the book I’m currently writing is the biggest of therapeutics for me. It’s all about my life, the past experiences I had being neglected as a young child, being mentally abused as up until I was an adult and moved out, and the horrible circumstances I encountered in relationships. It covers all the major things in my past. I’m writing it to be in a different time and universe, so to speak, and the reasoning for that, is I want to give myself the ability to add creativity to my traumas, and I feel that will help me tell my story, while also allowing for a more interesting and easier read.
To all of you readers, whether you like to write or not, I hope this was a look into the creative side of writing. I’m thankful to be able to share these things with all of you, and I hope you can also let your creativity grow, no matter how you do it.
Have a lovely rest of your day my friend!
~A
Ink & Embers 