It’s late, and it grows later as I bounce my 1 year old to sleep in her bouncer. My arm draped over the arm of the couch to gently push her chair up and down. We have all been very sick, a nasty cold. Everyone is tired, but feels too shitty to sleep. But asContinue reading “Motherhood in a nutshell”
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A puddle of fears, a mountain of tears
Sitting in silence the body and mind at war. Fight and flight responses firing at once. Fighting is impossible, With flight, there is no escape. Filled with torment and hate. Internally screaming with anger and rage Panic ensues when boundaries are broken How foolish I’ve been And how foolish I am. False hopes and dreamsContinue reading “A puddle of fears, a mountain of tears”
Just a chat
In all honesty, I had a whole post written yesterday that I didn’t finish. This morning I read back the first few sentences and I scratched the whole thing. Now here we are. I’ve had too much on my mind, and I’ve put a lot on my plate, which doesn’t exactly help the mental loadContinue reading “Just a chat”
At the bottom of a hole
“We all start somewhere.” A phrase I’ve often heard when you’re struggling to make ends meet. Some will never know what it’s like. They’ll never know what it’s like to be hungry, When all you could afford was a carton of eggs with the pennies you dug from your car, and the 10¢ you foundContinue reading “At the bottom of a hole”
The weight of it all
If my feelings today were tangible, they would fill up the room. There would be no space left to breathe The suffocating feeling would be too much, constricting. If my feelings from today were people, They would be rude, demeaning, and demanding They would be hurtful, They would push and shove, and scream And cry.Continue reading “The weight of it all”
A sneak peek into my book: This is Life
Chapter 1 Too young to remember The smell of smoke, dust, and cat urine. The sound of loud drums that rattled my chest, and a rumbling pain in my belly. The music stopped, and I was told to go away, it was time for the adults to be alone. So I went outside, crawling aroundContinue reading “A sneak peek into my book: This is Life”
Tips and tricks while living poor!
I am poor. I am not going to say that I am ashamed or that I want pity, because I’m not, and I don’t. There were and are many different factors that have played their parts in causing me to have little to no money. Life happens, and it is not always within the realmContinue reading “Tips and tricks while living poor!”
A glance back…
I sit here, my 4 month old baby girl fast asleep, my 3 year old son running back and forth to the kitchen to put his hands in a bowl of water beads, and I’m thinking back on this past year. Some really wonderful things happened, my daughter was born, my son had his 3rdContinue reading “A glance back…”
Birth story with my second child
You would think I would know a bit more about how it feels to go into labor, and when I should head for the hospital after my first baby. But let me tell you, I had no clue. With my son, I went to the hospital because my water broke, and then afterward I hadContinue reading “Birth story with my second child”
Exclusive pumping with both kids!
This whole post is about my journey to feed my babies, and how I decided that exclusively pumping breast milk was the best option for us. So if you are uncomfortable talking about the details of breastfeeding then I suggest you stop now! (Maybe read another post of mine! Haha) Boobs. They are not onlyContinue reading “Exclusive pumping with both kids!”
Ink & Embers 