Tag Archives: reflection

A letter to me

Thank you. You’ve been through so much already in life, and while it is terrible to experience such pain and heartbreak, please believe me when I say, it wasn’t for nothing. All the panic, all the tears, the fear and sleepless nights, they all paved the way to where you are now. Every inch thatContinue reading “A letter to me”

…but he’s never hit me: pt. 2

A Facebook friend request, sent at 18years old, has still never been accepted after 10 years. But a message was received, that said, “I can’t accept your friend request. Is this some sort of trap?” I said, “no, you just popped up on my people you may know, and I just did it. I didn’tContinue reading “…but he’s never hit me: pt. 2”

…but he’s never hit me: pt 1

Trigger warnings: very brief and vague mention of suicide, depression, rape and sexual assault. At 16 years old I made a choice that would change my life. I was never a rebellious kid, I was shy, quiet, and you’d always find me hidden in the back of the room. I had friends, but I wasContinue reading “…but he’s never hit me: pt 1”

Heart on my sleeve

I once held my heart on my sleeve That way others could see how much love I could give, and someone would be willing to take it. I now hold my heart deep in the unseen… It got hurt too many times, and now I feel sorry that I allowed it to get used byContinue reading “Heart on my sleeve”

If you just

Words I have heard far too many times Words that I once believed. For far too long. If you just listened, I wouldn’t have to yell. If you just did what I said, you wouldn’t get in trouble. If you just keep this a secret, nothing bad will happen. If you just lie, I won’tContinue reading “If you just”

Food for thought

Something interesting happened to me this week. I know it’ll sound silly, but I wanted to have some fun and try out the whole TikTok making videos thing. I was having fun, just doing random videos of organization before and afters, and my chickens, things like that. I decided that maybe I’d try telling aContinue reading “Food for thought”

A puddle of fears, a mountain of tears

Sitting in silence the body and mind at war. Fight and flight responses firing at once. Fighting is impossible, With flight, there is no escape. Filled with torment and hate. Internally screaming with anger and rage Panic ensues when boundaries are broken How foolish I’ve been And how foolish I am. False hopes and dreamsContinue reading “A puddle of fears, a mountain of tears”

Bad habits

Life has patterns The comings and goings of seasons The rising and setting of the sun The phases of the moon. Individual lives have patterns too. Some have a cycle they can’t escape A carousel of bad habits. So stuck in this infinite loop that they don’t realize they’re even there. Try to change andContinue reading “Bad habits”