Allowed

I allowed myself to feel comfort And I cried. I cried in a way that I don’t understand But I allowed myself to feel it. The comforting warmth of my son sleeping next to me, cozy in his blankets, his favorite stuffed seal in his hands I felt my body try to relax the tiniestContinue reading “Allowed”

Saying you love me

Saying you love me, is like rubbing salt into the wounds you refuse to see. The invisible gouges that you won’t acknowledge or take responsibility for, have become scars I will bear for years to come. When love given freely turned to pleas, Becoming new stabs to my heart that you will never feel, inContinue reading “Saying you love me”

How many lives

I had this thought tonight, How many lives must we have to get it right? How many battles must we lose How many wounds must we lick How many hours must we waste How many days must go by? How many tears must fall How many times must we lose it all How many timesContinue reading “How many lives”

Passing by strangers

I find myself passing by strangers, waving at the children before the adults Not because I have kids of my own now But because I know what it felt like to be out of sight To be out of mind To feel alone in a crowded room So I smile and acknowledge them first, toContinue reading “Passing by strangers”

I think I forgot

I think I forgot how to smile, how to speak and communicate like a normal person. That face caught me off guard. I forgot how to make eye contact, but then again, I was never good at that anyway. I think I forgot that kind of energy existed, it’s been so long. Kind and gentle.Continue reading “I think I forgot”

A life of love we shall find

My second little poetry book is now available! After a long time of procrastination and some technical errors (like a typo on the back cover haha) it is finally here! I am awaiting my own personal copy, but if you’re interested in getting it and showing a little support, I would be forever grateful! ItContinue reading “A life of love we shall find”

If you just

Words I have heard far too many times Words that I once believed. For far too long. If you just listened, I wouldn’t have to yell. If you just did what I said, you wouldn’t get in trouble. If you just keep this a secret, nothing bad will happen. If you just lie, I won’tContinue reading “If you just”

Shades of color

Sometimes you’ll find me in shades of blue Usually greens and greys too It is rare to see me in pink, though, only in a certain hue A sprinkle of red, maybe some white But the color you’ll find me in most, is black like the sky at night. Black gives me a confidence unlikeContinue reading “Shades of color”