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Leading the way

And there it was A light in the darkness that consumed me A sadness so palpable it enveloped the space around me Yet this light found a way through that darkness Knew how to navigate the emptiness because he himself lived in it. That light pulled me to the surface Opened my eyes and letContinue reading “Leading the way”

…but he’s never hit me: pt 1

Trigger warnings: very brief and vague mention of suicide, depression, rape and sexual assault. At 16 years old I made a choice that would change my life. I was never a rebellious kid, I was shy, quiet, and you’d always find me hidden in the back of the room. I had friends, but I wasContinue reading “…but he’s never hit me: pt 1”

Déjà vu

I have Deja vu often Seeing moments in the present that I have already “seen”. It isn’t just coincidence either These “relived” moments are exact replicas of time Down to the slightest movement or sound. When it hits me, I tend to pause It feels almost out-of-body, yet incredibly vivid. This phenomenon has been explainedContinue reading “Déjà vu”

Flashbacks

The smooth, warm smell of a vanilla candle yanks me back through time. Those have been my favorite candles for as long as I can remember, because amidst the trauma of my upbringing, that smell was sweet and comforting. The pungent scent of a juniper shrub, it reminds me of the many apartments we livedContinue reading “Flashbacks”