Tag Archives: living

I’ve been absent, I’m sorry. Here’s a poem!

I’ve been absent Gone like the morning dew after sunrise I seemingly vanished into thin air. If you’ve wondered where I went I haven’t gone far, it’s no surprise My energy stretched too thin to share. I’ve been trapped in chaos while trying to find peace Taxed with writers block and overwhelming fatigue. So muchContinue reading “I’ve been absent, I’m sorry. Here’s a poem!”

The Puppy

So, if you’ve been a follower for a while, you know that my son has moderate autism. he was diagnosed at 3 years old and he is now almost 5! (I can’t believe I just said that! Haha) and for the most part, he is still non-verbal. He mimics shows that he likes, and tellsContinue reading “The Puppy”

I thought…

I thought it was love, ‘cause he knew my name Said I was pretty, I guess I’m to blame. He gave me attention that I always craved Sixteen, naive My innocence taken away. Baited me in with lies and said we’d be ok. That little girl, a trauma filled teen Became a women trapped inContinue reading “I thought…”

Relax, it’s that simple…right?

In the dictionary of my brain The space beneath the word relaxation, is blank The meaning of this word is foreign to me For I have never been able to understand the feeling. When told to relax, I don’t know how Apparently this concept should be easy and simple But how can you feel aContinue reading “Relax, it’s that simple…right?”

Déjà vu

I have Deja vu often Seeing moments in the present that I have already “seen”. It isn’t just coincidence either These “relived” moments are exact replicas of time Down to the slightest movement or sound. When it hits me, I tend to pause It feels almost out-of-body, yet incredibly vivid. This phenomenon has been explainedContinue reading “Déjà vu”

Savior

I am not looking for someone to save me. No I don’t need that. What I am looking for, Is someone to sit with me while I feel. Someone to make me laugh Someone to show me kindness and grace while I take time to heal… if I can figure out how. I don’t needContinue reading “Savior”

Allowed

I allowed myself to feel comfort And I cried. I cried in a way that I don’t understand But I allowed myself to feel it. The comforting warmth of my son sleeping next to me, cozy in his blankets, his favorite stuffed seal in his hands I felt my body try to relax the tiniestContinue reading “Allowed”

My birthday

February 21st. I woke up this morning another year older. I turned 28 this morning, officially, at 8:15am. Thankfully I was still asleep! My kids have been sick and my 1 1/2 year old hasn’t let me sleep for two nights in a row. She was crying every 10 minutes or so from 12:30am toContinue reading “My birthday”

Saying you love me

Saying you love me, is like rubbing salt into the wounds you refuse to see. The invisible gouges that you won’t acknowledge or take responsibility for, have become scars I will bear for years to come. When love given freely turned to pleas, Becoming new stabs to my heart that you will never feel, inContinue reading “Saying you love me”