Thank you. You’ve been through so much already in life, and while it is terrible to experience such pain and heartbreak, please believe me when I say, it wasn’t for nothing. All the panic, all the tears, the fear and sleepless nights, they all paved the way to where you are now. Every inch thatContinue reading “A letter to me”
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…but he’s never hit me: pt. 2
A Facebook friend request, sent at 18years old, has still never been accepted after 10 years. But a message was received, that said, “I can’t accept your friend request. Is this some sort of trap?” I said, “no, you just popped up on my people you may know, and I just did it. I didn’tContinue reading “…but he’s never hit me: pt. 2”
Heart on my sleeve
I once held my heart on my sleeve That way others could see how much love I could give, and someone would be willing to take it. I now hold my heart deep in the unseen… It got hurt too many times, and now I feel sorry that I allowed it to get used byContinue reading “Heart on my sleeve”
Savior
I am not looking for someone to save me. No I don’t need that. What I am looking for, Is someone to sit with me while I feel. Someone to make me laugh Someone to show me kindness and grace while I take time to heal… if I can figure out how. I don’t needContinue reading “Savior”
Allowed
I allowed myself to feel comfort And I cried. I cried in a way that I don’t understand But I allowed myself to feel it. The comforting warmth of my son sleeping next to me, cozy in his blankets, his favorite stuffed seal in his hands I felt my body try to relax the tiniestContinue reading “Allowed”
Manifesting a dream
I’ll be sitting, Cozy on the couch Wrapped in a blanket sipping Hot tea rests in my hands without a shadow of doubt This is where I’m meant to be. The walls of a beautiful home Open arms for love to roam Unafraid to crawl in bed to go to sleep I can lay soundlyContinue reading “Manifesting a dream”
May we
May we meet at the shores of peace The sands of tranquility May we clearly see A world removed of its grease May we find comfort in open arms To feel love without trauma’s guards May we hear unfiltered And speak without fear May we find laughter in arguments And may we never learn resentmentContinue reading “May we”
Falling apart
I lie awake Wondering how long it might take For someone to notice, for someone to see Who am I? Why can’t I just be Me. My life revolved around you, and your never-met needs I sit and stare, my mind blank Can’t you understand my sanity is at stake? I’m drowning in stress CanContinue reading “Falling apart”
A puddle of fears, a mountain of tears
Sitting in silence the body and mind at war. Fight and flight responses firing at once. Fighting is impossible, With flight, there is no escape. Filled with torment and hate. Internally screaming with anger and rage Panic ensues when boundaries are broken How foolish I’ve been And how foolish I am. False hopes and dreamsContinue reading “A puddle of fears, a mountain of tears”
I’m going to be selfish for a bit.
Today I had the full realization that I have always put myself, my needs, my life, on the back burner. Hell, not even on the stove but stuck in the back of a cupboard. So I decided that I’d do something today that I’ve never done. I’m going to be selfish. I am going toContinue reading “I’m going to be selfish for a bit.”
Ink & Embers 