Expression through poetry
A gentle breeze brushes my skin
The warmth, caressing my body
And I am reminded of joy
I am reminded of comfort, peace, and love
I used to know what that felt like when we touched
But now it just rains, sometimes it pours
Things get dark, and heavy, and cold.
And then the sun peeks through, and the showers turn golden, warm and stunningly beautiful.
~A
I need to start this off by saying, I Loved this show!! The acting was great, the story was great, the plot twists, everything!
To me this show was a 9/10, highly recommend. It has a great balance of comedy and seriousness that just blends together perfectly. Seasons 1 & 2 were for sure smashers!
And while they did a great job on season 3, it was a bit different, for a sad reason. The main actress Christina Applegate, was diagnosed with debilitating MS, but she pushed through all the pain and struggles with helping her team to get her show done, and I commend her for it!
So, while the 3 season wasn’t as spunky and energetic, it was still good!
The show revolves around a woman of two boys, who loses her husband in a hot and run, and she is aggressively determined to figure out who did it. It begins with her going to a support group for those suffering loss. She meets a knot her woman who lost someone and they become great friends despite being complete opposites.
This show is a dark comedy, and very well done. So if you’re interested in watching a murder mystery with crazy turns, friendship, betrayal, lies and some good laughs, this show is for you!!
Have a wonderful weekend!
~A
Everyone has dreams of what they want in life, and that’s great. Without dreams we feel as though we have no purpose, nothing to strive for, no hope for a better tomorrow.
But what happens when you have such “big dreams” and you know they are unobtainable?
Not all of my dreams are big. In fact most are not. Majority of my dreams, are things that many people don’t even bat an eye at.
Ever since I can remember, I’ve wanted the same things. One of them I have actually received! My children! And I cannot be anymore thankful for the greatest gift of all, and my heart will always be immensely full!
But knowing that my other dreams may not come true… it feels like a weight in my stomach. I may never have a beautiful home for my children to live in, I may never have the funds necessary to allow them to do extracurricular things like dance class or a basketball camp.
I may never get to have a dog for my family to love and play with.
I won’t bore you with the details of why, but just to discuss the feelings of sadness we get when we know we may not achieve all we were meant to achieve.
I will always make the best of life, don’t get me wrong, but realizing that small dreams such as mine mean so much. Others who already have these things find it a silly thing to wish for, but we can’t all have the same dreams.
Dreams are ever changing, and they are valid regardless.
Never stop dreaming, no matter how far fetched or out of reach they may seem.
~A
Now that is a long title! *whew*
This was the first show that my granny put on when we started going to her house while my son was at school. I never actually knew what the full title of the show was but she said it had Kristen Bell in it.
To be honest I thought there would be some comedy in this show just because of the actress, but I was wrong. This show is a suspense thriller. And it was good!
Now there is a fairly long “in-depth” sex scene, which is pretty awkward to watch sitting next your grandmother while holding your week old newborn baby. But the show as a whole was good! The suspense was well done, and so were the little surprises throughout.
I give this show an 8/10, mainly because I was not a big fan of the drawn out sex scene.
But this show follows a newly divorced woman who lost her young daughter. She struggles with mental health issues from the loss of her daughter, and she drinks too much, so she has a history of hallucinations.
An attractive man and his daughter (who lost her mom) move in across the street, things start to happen, but she isn’t believed because of her history.
The way things unfold really does keep you on your toes!
I hope you have a wonderful weekend! If you’ve seen this show or want to, let me know!
~A
Welcome to my small hometown in eastern Oregon where you never know if the day will be t-shirt and sandals kind of day or a coat and snow boots one.
We went from this…
To this…
To THIS!…
And back to this today…
The flakes of snow as I write this, are the size of pennies. And if this were Christmas Day, I’d be ecstatic! But this is not Christmas Day, it’s Mid April. I planted seeds indoors later than I mean to, and good thing! Had I planted any earlier they would all probably wilt and die before I can get them outside to my garden bed I just built!
My seedlings are getting big, ready to transplant, but the temperatures at night are still dropping below 25°F and have barely risen above mid 50°. This is a long winter my friend. I love that we are getting so much moisture for the ground (not my leaking roof) but we need warmth to start our growth! Unfortunately I have no idea when we will get the chance to plant our crops, wish me luck!
I hope your weather is more forgiving where you are! And have a fantastic rest of you day!
~A
If my feelings today were tangible, they would fill up the room.
There would be no space left to breathe
The suffocating feeling would be too much, constricting.
If my feelings from today were people,
They would be rude, demeaning, and demanding
They would be hurtful,
They would push and shove, and scream
And cry.
Of all the feelings from today, there is one that could be called a friend.
She would be warm, bright, and calm.
She would be love, light, and comfort.
She would just about take all others out of sight.
If she were real, she would be the friend that I so desperately need in life.
Today has been hectic and also happy, it’s been sad but there is hope. I sincerely wish you the best in the rest of your day! Hell, the rest of your week!
~A
Every weekday morning for 2 1/2 hours, my new baby girl and drop my son off at his preschool, and we drive to the opposite end of the town to my grandparents house. And every morning, we sit and watch a show that she has selected on netflix. It’s a wonderful time, and I look forward to our shows.
We are now on our 6th show! (That sounds excessive haha)
But the show I wanted to start out with for this new Review segment, is Wednesday.
That dance was all the rant and rave, so I knew we had to see what all the fuss was about!
Now, I’ve seen the 1991’s The Addams Family movie, and while I did enjoy it, I won’t say I was a fan, because, well that’s the only one I’d ever seen. I didn’t even know there were multiple movies until I just googled the release date on the first movie!
So I’m not a diehard fan, but let me tell ya, I am a fan of the Wednesday show! Jenna Ortega did a fantastic job in the show! And the fact that they brought the original actress of Wednesday in to be on the show was a really cool decision, I think.
This show had me questioning every character the whole way through, and then doubting myself at every turn.
I ended up being correct with my original suspect, but the way they make you second guess yourself is really great!
Now a fun fact that I learned, was that the viral dance that Jenna (Wednesday) did, was mostly improvised! She said she took some moves from the original Wednesday, but none of it was choreographed, and it was great! Kudos to you miss Jenna.
So if you have not watched Wednesday yet, I recommend you do!
If however you have an issue with some blood and guts, maybe it isn’t quite your show. Nonetheless I give this show an 8/10! (I’m giving an 8 because I didn’t like some of the CGI effects.
I hope you will enjoy my new little segment, I’ll try to post one of these every Friday, until I’ve run out of shows to talk about! *haha*
Have a wonderful weekend friend!
~A
I am often at war with myself. Feeling as though I don’t deserve, that what I feel I deserve, is just a want.
I don’t deserve to be loved. I just want to be loved.
Or I don’t deserve respect from others, I just want it, and wish I had it.
I know I’m not the only one who has felt this way. And what a terrible feeling it is. Because even though I have these thoughts, there is also a part of me that says, “Yes, you do deserve love, you do deserve respect! Quit settling for less than you DESERVE!”
The unfortunate part of all of this, is that my brain was “trained” to feel so negatively about myself. I was spoken down to as a child, as a teen, and as an adult, by people who were supposed to be looked up at.
Taught to show and give respect, even if I never received it, or even when being shown disrespect.
I’ve worked very hard to acknowledge when I’m having thoughts of worthlessness. I know I’m lying to myself when I think negatively in that aspect, because I tend to cry harder at that thought, than I was at the true cause of my sadness.
It’s hard to tell myself that I am not worthy, but it is even harder for me to admit that, yes, I am worthy of love, and respect.
It’s difficult to change the way we think, but it’s worth it. You are worth it. Acknowledge those bad thoughts, and tell yourself to stop lying to yourself. Self-worth is not a measurement, but it is a tremendous feeling. So take care of yourself, and remember to allow yourself to feel loved.
~A
Oats with vanilla yogurt and mini chocolate chips.
That’s it, that’s all you need, and it makes a healthy, simple, fast, filling breakfast that even my toddler loves! I mean he shovels it, with his hands, because a spoon just isn’t fast enough!
A little back story on my breakfast!
When I was pregnant with my first baby, (my toddler who loves these oats) it was all by accident. I was fairly poor, but thankfully I was able to get on a nutritional supplement program called WIC.
Well on my pregnant lady WIC benefits, I was allowed dry oats, and whole fat vanilla yogurt in a big tub, among other things.
But I was actually trying to do overnight oats at first, so I was only eating the yogurt as a side snack. And during my pregnancy I was ravenously hungry. If I didn’t eat in the middle of the night and first thing after waking up, I would all but pass out. It was terrible. Well I ran out of my overnight oat materials, but I did have the yogurt and chocolate chips. So I thought, I’ll try it.
And it was delicious.
I ate that regularly after that day. And then when my son was born I continued to eat it and also give it to him when he was old enough.
So here is what I do:
1/4 – 1/2 cup dry old fashioned oats in a bowl
3-4 heaving spoonfuls (give or take) of your whole fat vanilla yogurt (you can use whatever you like for yogurt, this is just what I prefer for taste and texture!)
Mix thoroughly together until creamy
Then top or mix in your mini semi sweet chocolate chips.
That’s it! Enjoy it, and I hope you try this out for you or your kiddos!
The chocolate chips are a hit!
~A
So the other day I was told that I had a more “free ranging parenting style”. Well for a minute I did feel a bit offended to be honest with you.
I’d heard of such parenting and I didn’t agree or like it; no bed times, no being careful, not much parental supervision, if any, and I didn’t like that at all. Children need stability and some boundaries but most importantly to me, they need to be watched…
Anyway, I went home that day and I looked it up. “What is free range parenting”
Well, basically what I just described above but not quite so drastic. So here is what the wiki said:
“Free-range parenting is the concept of raising children in the spirit of encouraging them to function independently and with limited parental supervision, in accordance with their age of development and with a reasonable acceptance of realistic personal risks. It is seen as the opposite of helicopter parenting”
While going down a short rabbit hole on this I stumbled across something that said there were 4 main parenting styles.
No reading that made me realize that I am more so in the authoritative group, I work with my children, and I listen, there are boundaries but I also allow for them to make mistakes to learn for themselves. I’d say this is where the “gentle parenting” people sit as well. And honestly this is the group you want to be in!
I was a child of neglect and abuse, and I’ll tell you first hand, while I’m a fine functioning adult, I have some battles in life that could have easily been avoided, had I been in an authoritative parenting household.
Sadly not everyone has the mental ability to treat their children this way and that breaks my heart. But it is sooo very common. And it’s something I can’t even fathom. Being so carefree that you are protecting you child and giving necessary guidance, pretending your child isn’t even there and ignoring their existence, or being so damn strict and power hungry that you ruin every semblance of happiness your child deserves… all of them make me sick to my stomach.
So while I’ve been called a helicopter parent and now recently a free range parent, I wouldn’t ever change the way that I have looked after my babies. I give them the space and freedoms to be happy and independent, while also feeling safe to run to me when needed or wanted. I helicopter parent from a distance to make sure my autistic son is safe while also allowing him to feel calm and free to play.
I’m a calm parent, we don’t have set schedules for every minute of the day, most of our time is free play and it’s usually productive, but it isn’t forced. Force makes everyone haul ass backwards, so why would it be any different with your child?
We have set bedtime, we wake up and go to school on a schedule, we have appointments regularly, but I do not force my kids to adhere to a set schedule of, you brush your teeth at exactly this time, you eat at this exact time, you only play with this toy for x amount of minutes. No. Your child needs to learn how to manage themselves when there is nothing to do. They need to figure out how to occupy their time, or else when they grow up and move out, they won’t know what to do, they will get bored and anxious that you aren’t setting up their whole day.
There’s my two cents.
Have a lovely day friends, and remember to just love your kids and make them smile and laugh. That’s what life is about. It’s not a job, it’s not a game. Smile, play, eat, be happy and loving.
~A
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