Happy Thanksgiving

I stand here in my kitchen today slowly but surely getting Thanksgiving food prepared. The turkey is in the oven smothered and stuffed with butter and herbs, and the rolls are sitting out rising, awaiting their turn to be baked.

Next comes the pie, I can’t wait for that. Pumpkin pie has always been my favorite.

And while I’m happy right now and thankful for my family, I will say that this holiday, like most others, has already taken its mental toll. My kids father decided that last night was the night to pick a huge fight, which again has him questioning whether he should leave or not. I told him to just go. I’m tired of the fighting and the disrespect towards me and my person.

He did not leave however. And another bout of arguing happened this morning. I won’t get into the details, but I just want to let you know, that if you’re also struggling with family or a spouse during the holidays, you can still enjoy the day. Set your attention on the good parts of the day. Like the smell of the yummy food, the smiles of the kids faces and the sound of their laughter.

It’s difficult to love the holidays as I used to, but someday I hope that I will find that joy again in full force. Not just for my kids sake, but for mine as well. We all deserve to feel the warmth and love that the holidays are meant to bring. Let’s make a point to find it, and let it in, regardless of the assholes that try to ruin it.

Happy Thanksgiving my friends!

And if you don’t celebrate, I hope you still have a happy Thursday!

I am beyond thankful for all of you today, and for all of your support, the community I’ve found here and the freedom it’s given me to find myself. Thank you.

Much love,

~Allie