Just a chat

In all honesty, I had a whole post written yesterday that I didn’t finish. This morning I read back the first few sentences and I scratched the whole thing. Now here we are.

I’ve had too much on my mind, and I’ve put a lot on my plate, which doesn’t exactly help the mental load I’ve given myself.

Raising children can be very challenging at times, but raising children that are very young, one that is non verbal autistic with sensory processing disorders, and raising them basically alone nonetheless, is even more challenging. When you add finances, or lack there of, to the mix, it makes things wildly more complicated.

I don’t say this for pity, but just to get some things off of my chest. It’s been far too long since I have had a real conversation with anyone, so if you could imagine, I have too much I need to let out.

I so wish that I had a friend that would come over and just sit with me, we could drink coffee or have lunch while watching the kids play, and we could talk about anything and everything that needs to be said.

Let’s just take a quick look at what I’ve got going on.

I’m working on my book Beyond the Walls, I’ve been shadowing some classes on Coursera trying to see what I enjoy before I pay for anything (money is more than tight here so I need to be certain before I spend a penny). I am also taking free computer coding classes on Codecademy, and doing my best to work on designs for my Etsy shop even though I’ve never sold a thing.

I’m grasping at straws trying make income from home, because I have to. This blog is just for my peace of mind, and yes, I did hope I could make something from it. Because how incredible would it be to make income while doing something you like to do for fun?! But in all transparency, this blog has only made a total of .12¢, and I don’t expect it to pick up as I’ve seen a big drop in visits and views. But you know what? I don’t mind, I will still write on here because I like to, and because I enjoy talking with the few friends I have made on here, even if you’re just virtual friends and you live across great spans of land an ocean from me, you know who you are! I want to thank you guys for giving me a sense of belonging, and giving me the courage and confidence to write more and to publish my poetry book. You have given me a kick to do what I love and to realize that I shouldn’t feel the embarrassment I once did.

I have a lot more to say, but I’ll save it for later as I’m sure I’ve bored you enough! *Haha* (and my coffee has gone cold twice now, it’s taken me a long while to write today. Sick babies need lots and lots of snuggles and tissues.)

If anyone needs to talk about anything, go ahead, I’m listening

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P.s. none of my links are affiliate links. I just linked them in case anyone wants to look at the things I’m talking about!

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Have a wonderful weekend friends

~A