Heavy

I am floating

And I am heavy.

I am emotional

And I am numb.

The minutes take ages

And a year takes minutes.

Reality has been unveiled

It’s true form staring me in the face…

I am stuck.

And I feel free.

Who am I…

Who will I be?

Things have been rough there lately for me you guys, so I apologize for not posting much. I’ve been wanting to but the things are just… well, heavy. This hike was a nice reminder that my world is not as small as it feels sometimes. The smaller your world feels, the easier it is to feel trapped.

I didn’t even hesitate when my mom asked if I wanted to hike with them, I needed that space to breathe. Ronan did too, he was so happy and calm and talkative (in his own way) and that was fantastic to see! His language is developing slowly but surely and I couldn’t be anymore proud of him, and his sister, they are both the rocks that keep me grounded, they are the waters of life that know no bounds, I will do my best to keep that spirit alive.

I’ve been busy, and maybe I’ll hit ya with an update, but for now, just know that I hope you are able to find peace and happiness in your days, no matter how small or how big.

Love, peace and happiness should not be earned. They should be second nature.

~A